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One to grow on. [Jul. 24th, 2008|01:19 pm]
[Current Location |li]
[mood | happy]
[music |Fields of Gold- Sting]

"Le bonheur ne vient jamais comme on l'a imagine."
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Tell me what I'm supposed to do. [Jun. 30th, 2008|02:59 pm]
[mood | nauseated]
[music |Say- John Mayer]

Instead of making it better I'm going to smoke.
I cannot make myself do the things I really should do.
As always.
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Bulgarian Bars! [May. 4th, 2008|12:45 am]
[Current Location |Paradise]
[mood | drunk]
[music |Greeeeeeccee!]

i dont really write in this but i had to share.
when i woke up this morning i did not expect to be drunk, salsa dancing to greek (hungarian?) music in the same room as ian mcewan or the guy who wrote the virgin suicides. but that is exactly what happened tonight. i spent my night hanging out with some chicks in publishing and drinking free wine brought to me by this guy who looks exactly like richard dryfuss. 

i love u new york city and ur randomness.

so one of the best nights ever= strangers, speaking french, famous authors, vin, music.
who knew?
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Let's all go get drunk. [Mar. 17th, 2008|03:53 pm]
[Current Location |LI]
[mood | calm]
[music |White Lies- Paul Van Dyk/Jessica Sutta]

uhm , I love you?
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Today's Sunday. [Feb. 10th, 2008|06:07 pm]
[Current Location |y'know]
[mood | busy]
[music |The dishwasher]

 I am giving up bullshit for lent.

*excitement*
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Ecrire. [Feb. 1st, 2008|03:10 am]
[Current Location |Manhattan]
[mood | happy]
[music |The sounds of NYC streets.]

 I cannot believe that I stopped writing for so long.
In the past couple of days I've written a whole bunch of poetry. And I'm so happy about that.

It's kind of been out of necessity because of my creative writing class, but I do sometimes find myself actually inspired. And right before I go to sleep I keep thinking of these lines and then they have to go somewhere. And then it takes a couple of minutes and then I have a poem. Or half of one. For the most part nothing is forced, unless it's one of those excercises that he makes us do. Sorry but I cannot on command write about Abraham Lincoln being depressed or the sea. 

Scary fact: I had not written anything creative until november except for 1 piece (which doesn't really count as like a story or a poem, it's more like my thoughts with some imagery thrown in) since I got this computer. Which was the summer before my freshman year in college. So 2 years ago....uhm, having written that down that seems like a really long as time. I guess I had a lot bottled up inside me that uhm kinda wanted to go somewhere. 

I took a book of Neruda poems out of the library today and he's such a great poet. Even though I can't read spanish, I can pick out certain words and the english translations are poetic enough to entertain me. 

I've pretty much gotten over the whole making everything flowery and beautiful. Which is why I think I stopped writing in the first place. I was just so overwhelmed with trying to put a sunset into words that I just pretty much gave up. Which is kind of sad when I think about it now. But oh well. To the surprise of pretty much no one, one of my biggest inspirations has been Brandon. Whenever I read something that he writes I go off and try to write something, which again really helps the whole creative writing class thing.

It's nice to try and express myself eloquently without using the phrase "cunting shitbag." Though I guess if I could work that into a poem about the sunrise I would be quite amused.

I wish it were warm out so that I could go to pier and hang out and look at New Jersey. Or the statue of liberty or something. Maybe I'll go to the promenade and look at the skyline.

Having read this again, I can't believe that I am talking about writing. Considering how incoherent I sound. But I stand by what I said, and since it's pretty much 3:30 in the morning, I am allowed to be incoherent.
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Sometimes [Jan. 22nd, 2008|01:59 am]
[Current Location |New Amsterdam.]
[mood | annoyed]
[music |Snow- RHCP]

I have my first class of the spring semester in 9 hours. Uhm. fuck. Today was a weird day, it went back and forth between incredibly shitty, kinda shitty, amazing and okay. I don't want to go to school. It's boring, and pointless and never ending.

I can't believe I have to pay money to feel shitty. I could have done that for free. Also now that I'm back, I missed the Wire on Sunday. And Butchie fucking died. And I can guess how it happened and I'm so angry that I missed it. School ruins everything that was good in my life.

I had a pretty good break. I didn't finish reading return of the king, but eh whatever. I can't really get into it. I'll probably finish it this week. There's a horrible draft in our room and our heater doesn't work properly. 

Tommy made me an amazing ice cream cake, there's nothing better than chocolate and peanut butter.

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It's 2008 and nothing has changed. [Jan. 15th, 2008|02:37 am]
[Current Location |Suffolk Co NY]
[mood | thoughtful]
[music |Get Down, Get Horny- Basement Jaxx]

Everybody knows.


I am not going to sleep tonight until I write something competent.

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What's the real value? I ain't much for sentiment. [Dec. 27th, 2007|02:04 pm]
[Current Location |Home!]
[mood | thirsty]
[music |The Wire]

 I'm pretty sure that the most entertaining thing I ever saw was Brandon singing "Midnight Train to Georgia." Best freaking thing ever.

AVP:R is surprisingly great. You should see it one day.

Also I'm home, score!

Means school is done! Double score!

Not that much else to say.
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School Daze (I just want you to fall in love with me) [Dec. 17th, 2007|04:11 pm]
[Current Location |North of Wall St.]
[mood | complacent]
[music |Fall in Love(Eric Kupper mix)- Tortured Soul]

 I am coming home in 3 days.  Against all better judgment, I have already set numerous goals for myself. And I will feel bad when I don't complete them. I got a B in economics...and you don't know how happy I am about that, because by right it should be a C. I hate school so freakin' much, and I just want college to end. I don't know what I plan on doing with my life, and that doesn't bother me. Because it shouldn't. I just want to hurry up and get to the big scary unknown. Because what I do know is that I have no desire to do this and I have no desire to go to graduate school, and that I can't think of a single thing that I enjoy enough to make a career out of (clearly, its not grammar). 

All I want:
1. My bed (always and forever, my bed)
2. Bobbles (good old Bobbles)
3. Kick Brandon's ass in Scrabble, (I'd settle for just kicking his ass, but the scrabble aspect is a pride thing)
4. Reread LOTR and the Hobbit
5. Black Cole Haan Fiona pumps
6. Food processor

And that's pretty much it. I don't care about Christmas anymore. I have completely lost that lovin' feelin'. Don't miss it. Whatever. it's my fault, so I deserve it. 

And as a heads up, the wire (final season, *tear*,) starts jan 6th. That means, sunday nights 9-10 don't ask me for shit. 

poltics final tomorrow and psych on thursday. time to fake study so i can at least act like i tried to apply myself.

"you might be afraid, but there's no need to be"
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Joie de vie. [Nov. 13th, 2007|06:54 pm]
[Current Location |Kittens!]
[mood | thoughtful]
[music |Stop 4 Love- Basement Jaxx]

Considering that Thanksgiving is next week, I figured I'd make a list of things that I was thankful for. (#1 on the list will not be ability to end sentences with prepositions, but it should really go on there). The order was basically things that just happened to come to my mind.

1.Chocolate and peanut butter
2. Cigarettes
3. New York City
4. The beach
5. German engineering
6. Rear wheel drive
7. Liberal thinking
8. Literacy
9. Creativity
10. The night sky
11. Fireworks
12. Vodka
13. Cute little furry animals
14. Photograpy
15. Secrets
16. House Music
17. Snow
18. Postcards
19.Falafel
20. New York style pizza
21. Christmas trees/lights/music
22. Fresh baked cookies
23. The food network
24. Television
25. Habenero cheddar cheese
26. Long Island Ice Tea
27. Crushed Ice
28. Museums

(uhm, clearly the friends and family whatever but u know this was for more material not mushy things)

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I really wish I had milk and eggs. [Nov. 13th, 2007|05:51 pm]
[Current Location |La grande pomme.]
[mood | good]
[music |Atwa- System of a Down]

1. I enjoy throwing parties, especially theme ones.
2. My registration time was today at 12:30. 2 of the classes that I wanted to take were already closed,  registration started yesterday. So now, I'm on the waitlist for abnormal psych and creative writing.
3. Yes, that's right, I'm going to take creative writing (if i can get in). Which means...I'll have to write again. Scary.
4. I'm coming home next tuesday. Not excited to be home persay, but I am not doing any work whatsoever the entire week. So that'll be nice. And it's looking like I'm going to spend the entire week cooking which is always nice.

My ipod just shit itself. More than I have ever seen anything shit itself. I don't even know what it's doing. Oh man it needs to be replaced.
 
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I want it to be december already. [Oct. 15th, 2007|04:34 pm]
[Current Location |Apt]
[mood | sick]
[music |Piano Man- Billy Joel]

 Things that have happened to me recently:

1. I made hashbrowns
2. I listened to, rather than watched fireworks (not as good btw)
3. I watched 6 hours of the Law and Order SVU marathon, and it gave me nightmares. 
4. I went home
5. I baked a white cake with almond and raspberry filling.
6. I'm pretty sure that I had a stomach flu for the entire week. 
7. I got an 85 on my econ midterm. go me.

And I think that's it. That was productive and an effective way of distracting myself from studying for politics and advertising.
You know, my stomach still hurts. What the hell?

Also, they fucking make electronic banking monopoly! You get a debit card instead of cash, that shit is fucked up on too many goddamn levels.
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Candles and Aimee Mann. [Oct. 8th, 2007|10:26 pm]
[Current Location |The Room.]
[mood | apathetic]
[music |Monk's Mood- Thelonious Monk]

So yesterday Sydney and I went for a walk and chilled by the east river.
And as usual, we freaked the fuck out about getting older and changing times and our futures. because all we ever do is freak the fuck out.

And she brought up a very good point, about how friendships change and they become lukewarm, but u feel bad that u don't feel the way you used to towards the person. And then I mentioned that whenever that happens you always feel like you're letting your former self down, because you had such hopes for your future. That you were going to be close to this person for forever and ever and nothing would ever change that. And although I don't believe that people can change, there is a definite difference between where we are today and where we were 5 years ago. And I mean regardless of how I feel about that, I can't do anything about it, so there's no use in freaking out.

So now, I'm kind of like...hmm how many friendships are like that? Where I'm just going by what happened 3 years ago, and really I don't give a shit about this person. But I'm just pretending because I don't want to disappoint my former self. 

"If you ain't got dreams, bubs, what the fuck you got?"

I've been fighting back the urge to throw up all day, and it's really bothering me. I don't know what I ate but its still bothering me.
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Sometimes I want to be like everyone else. [Oct. 7th, 2007|07:45 pm]
[Current Location |Nowhere good]
[mood | sore]
[music |The Scientist- Aimee Mann]

my life is lacking:
purpose
direction
desire
excitement
reason.

...awesome. i need something to do in my spare time, other than complaining that i have nothing to do in my spare time. i don't want to have spare time anymore, i want to feel guilty when i want to take a day off, like normal people.

"there's much pea-ness going on here, i like it"-some judge on iron chef.

also do not wear 4 inch heels and walk around manhattan, it fucking hurts.

and now its time to watch tv instead of studying for politics.

well at least i dont have to wonder why my life lacks purpose.

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They're both pathetic. [Oct. 3rd, 2007|11:24 pm]
[Current Location |Manhattan.]
[mood | full]
[music |Hollywood- Madonna]

 So today I:

-went to my econ lecture
-studied for hours on end for econ
-peeled apples so jojo could make apple pie
-waited for the 2 apple pies to finish baking
-watched the season premiere of south park which was soooo wrong.
-made fried potato dumplings

none of those things were really necessary aside from econ.

and I can't wait for Friday. Holy shit, this test will be over. Nothing will make me happier than when I'm done having to learn all this shit about infaltion and the unemployment rate.

speaking of employment...my dad's consulting at motorola now.

and that was more or less it.
i'm going to psych (hopefully) for the 1st time in a week and a half tmw.
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Nobody knows it but me. [Oct. 2nd, 2007|10:11 pm]
[Current Location |East River]
[mood | pleased]
[music |The Way You do the Things You do- The Temptations]

 Have a merry christmas.

-that more or less says it all. 

also, fuck economics. that finishes it.

also, apple picking oct 26. (excited face)
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Hopping around like a one legged pig town whore on pay day. [Sep. 26th, 2007|08:12 pm]
[mood | sick]
[music |The Wire]

I 'm getting sick. And it's fucked up. School's....schooly.

I want to go apple picking either in NJ, upstate, or Connecticut...anyone in?

Come on fresh apples! I'll bake pie, it'll be grand.

I can't think of anything else to say.
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You're the moisture in my rain. [Sep. 3rd, 2007|07:55 pm]
[Current Location |Tourist Hell]
[mood | okay]
[music |U R on my Mind- Basement Jaxx]

School starts tomorrow...which I do not comprehend.
Sooooo wrong.
I get the lifetime movie network.
Uhm, 54th best thing ever btw.
Also, I love NY milkshake co. Their chocolate and peanut butter milkshake is the best thing to ever happen to anyone ever.
Jojo is a great roomate. We make nachos...clearly it was meant to be.
Everyone I know is studying abroad. It's weird.
I'm searching for jobs...which is needlessly hard, and I don't want to.

I don't want to spend 516 dollars on books. My classes suck.

They are, for reference:
Advertising Techniques (2 hours and 45 minutes by the way!)
Economics Principles I
Power and Politics in America
Social Psychology

....see what happens when everything I want to take is closed out?
I can't believe we're juniors....how the fuck did that happen?  

There are so many damn tourists over here. And I don't know why. Dammit leave. Who the hell comes to NYC to go to a fucking mall? Honestly.

If anyone wants to come visit, you should! We have lots of space. And a kitchen. And an aerobed.
Also, make art for the walls...they are blank.
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It's such a nice night out. [Aug. 27th, 2007|11:15 pm]
[Current Location |Dorm]
[mood | tired]
[music |Red Dust- Zero 7]

I'm back in NYC. Living with Jojo. Uhm, we live in a studio. It's pretty roomy. There is a huge freaking closet. And we have a dishwasher. And someone put a couch and an arm chair in here too. There's a gym on our floor, so we really have no excuse for not working out. There's so much blank space on the walls. We need more posters and pictures and colorful shit to hang up.

I really can't believe that we're juniors. I don't know where the time went. The fact that we're graduating next year is just insane. And then it'll be time to pay back my loans (oh rapture!). There was probably more that I wanted to say, but I am so freaking tired because we went shopping today and we walked a crazy amount. In fact, we walked from 8th st and university place back to the seaport. Which is a freaking long ass walk, I'll have you know.

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